My son left us with the most wonderful gift. Devin was in the hospital fighting for his life with a ruptured appendix. He unfortunately was given the wrong care and soon his body was filled with toxins, which shut down his organs. I whispered in Devin’s ear. Don’t Give Up. I sat beside him holding his hand. I started to dose off. I guess the past two days had been really hard, but for some reason I was so calm. Almost like in a state of shock. When I dosed off my phone and his monitor went off. My older son Collin was calling me at the very moment Devin flat lined. I opened my eyes to see a white mist like cloud go from my son to the ceiling. Then a team of nurses rushing into the room. I stepped out to answer the call. Collin was worried about an appointment he had needed to get to the next day. I told him I don’t think it matters anymore, let me talk to Grandma. My mom Andrea got on the phone. I said Devin is gone. She let out a loud scream… After the call I found myself frozen in the hallway. A security guard rushed to my side in case I flipped out. Then I was approached by a doctor telling me they have been trying to revive Devin and would I like them to continue for an additional 5 minutes or something like that. I thought what a weird thing to ask. What do you think I’m going to say “Nah Don’t Worry About It!” I said yes. Then I asked, do you have children? He said no. I immediately thought then get out of my face. The security guard brings me a cookie and juice. Why the hell would I be hungry right now. Then a nurse approaches me saying I have a phone call. It’s Devin’s Ice Hockey Coach Jeff calling to ask how Devin is doing. I said he is gone. Jeff just lost it. Then a Reverend comes to talk to me. Now I’m really annoyed thinking I wasn’t one to go to church, so I asked him to leave me alone. I grew up believing in a God, but was always wondering why we exist. Never went to church because I just wasn’t able to have someone tell me what to think because they have some book. (Sorry no pun intended, it was just my stubborn way of thinking). I return to Devin in shock, I can’t even cry just complete shock. I stand there thinking should I cut some of his hair off? As I’m standing there his belly made a sound and deflated in front of me. His nose and ears were purple from all the toxins. The hard part is having to hear all the staff laugh and go on about their day. I know its quite common for people to get annoyed with life when grieving. We just wish everyone would understand how we feel. After standing there in complete confusion for a while, I thought I want to go home to see my family. So I left.
I was leaving the hospital and as I was driving my automatic rear view mirror on driver side were going crazy moving back and forth. I’m like what the heck. Then I have a thought it’s Devin. I asked is that you Devin? Then immediately thought how’s he supposed to answer so I said Yes move mirror and No don’t. The mirror started to move. My heart sank. Here I’m on the freeway in Los Angeles and have no idea how to get home. As Devin was air lifted by helicopter to this hospital. I drove here in shock and just remember watching a helicopter in the sky and basically following it. So I was not sure where I was. I asked him a few more questions and some questions got a move and others didn’t. I’m just in complete shock.
That was just the beginning. All day long everyday I was seeing him perfectly in my minds eye and out of the corner of my eye I would see a black shadow of a person. When I turned it would be gone. I would feel him, smell him and hear him. I even would close my eyes and see a film picture show like back in the day where you play your family video on the wall like a projector. I began to think I was going crazy so I asked him to visit other members of the family to confirm it was him. All of a sudden everyone started coming to me telling me about their visit. WOW…
Devin’s older brother Collin and younger brother Owen began to hear tapping on the ceiling above us. At first we thought OMG we have rats! Then it would follow us to other rooms. Before we knew it we were running around the house room to room to see if it would follow and sure enough it did. Haha, I guess we were playing with Devin. I start to buy every book on life after death, trying to understand what was happening. I was guided by Devin to attend Metaphysical and Energy classes. I quickly became aware I was able to sense and know things. As well as ask spirit if someone had blocked energy and was able to release it.
About a month had past and I was starting to understand more about the other side. I began to feel guilty that I was keeping Devin here. So I said you can leave… That instant I felt something go from my feet, through my body, and out my head. I felt alone for the first time since Devin passed. Now the communication was different. I had to try harder, but with the same results.
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Tracy Taylor
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